Hell and Heaven....or horryfing senseless darkness?

Hello again!



I have always wondered....what happens with us after we die?...you know...when it's speculated that you lose your ability to use your body and you go in a long,deep sleep.



Of course you heard about all the theories that were formulated about this subject: death [moarte]...I heard some of them: your so-called soul goes in some kind of supernatural place, far from the human possibilities of understanding; you become part of energy in nature; the one with the reincarnation:the start of new life, but in a new body...; or of course, just deep dark and nothing more...in your coffin there.



In my opinion, after death, the soul that "lives" in you so much time during your life, from the moment of your birth to the moment of your death, leaves the proper body and goes on its way to the sky...It is more the religious theory but I strongly believe it:)..so there...the soul stands in front of the God and its fate is decided...the soul starts practically its life then...and this can be in 2 places: Heaven or hell..; and of course, one of them represents good, and the other one, evil..So, if the soul goes to Heaven, it is supposed that its life[that is, by the way, eternity....that is again far from the capacities of human to understand...how long does the eternity last?, but that's an answer that only God know] will be happy, joyful and with no sorrow.but, if it is sent to the hell, its eternity will be painful, sad, and of course the soul will be tortured, as a punishment for its bad doings during the human life.


The human life is just a diversion, a kind of test, to decide the place of the soul during the eternity: so, if you behave well and respect the laws and rules that God told you to respect and put them into practice, your soul will go to Heaven and if not, you'll obviously go to hell...where the soul will be punished for the bad things his body did during the life. it doesn't sound well, it sounds horrible...it may be, it may be not, this theory has not been confirmed by anyone..that is where uncertainty comes..so you can't be sure that this theory is true...

Now I want to describe these 2 places....the 2 places where one of them is the total opposite of the other one. Let's say that the Heaven is just like a garden in my oppinion, a garden where peace and kindness rule and where all the souls of the good people leave in bliss along with the animals, the plants, the fruits, anything...anything that God created is there, in that place, which I hopefully desire to see....I wish I were a better child, a more relicious child, but I am not...Well, of course, Heaven is a place where your soul could stay for eternity and benefit only from the good things, not worry, not cry and not arguing with anyone...it's marvellous in there.

The hell is a horrible place, where the souls of the bad people are sent to be punished for the bad things they did during their lives and live in the misery they diserve...it is far froom our imagination how cruel such a place could be...but I am sure about the very existance o this place...and i don't wanna see it. I know that there, the souls are tortured into the fire of hell and feel oall the negative feelings. they never get to be happy again and they suffer a lot because the demons make fun of them and laugh seeing the souls suffering and living in pain forever...and I really mean forever.

Hope you all get to Heaven:D!



But, of course, nobody brought proofs that all these are true...so the simple man speculates that when someone dies...it loses its ability to move or to communicate or to even think, its body desintegrating slowly...dying. The body is put in a coffin deep down in a cave, then burried, and then laied there. The man's family or friends often come to see him or her, bbut that's all, and he just lay down there, in darkness,not moving, not doing anything actually, "living" in horryfing darkness for the eternity. Soon, he will be forgotten by everybody...and his bones will continue to exist deep down...until he vanishes permanently.
So that's my theory about death...I don't want you to agree with me, because I know that not many people think like me. So, finally, a less emo post:D...nb:)

back in my world

I don't know if I am gonna be as emo and sad as last night but I'll just try to expose my feelings again...yeah...you guessed...something happened again as always...new day=>new feelings and emotions, totally uncomfortable..
I feel again abandoned because I haven't got the meaning of the word "friend" in my mind....some people I thought they were my friends...even my best friends, didn't changed a word with me today....funny,huh? Imagine how it feels to have noone to talk with..I need a cat...my lovely Butzu.I'd give anything to have him with me now, to tell him that I am writing about him...but WTF am I saying?:)) of course he wouldn't understand anything...and of course he won't answer if I try to call...Damn it!!!
I'd like to meet new people every day...to communicate with different personalities, to change my friends daily so I can not get to suffer from my actual friends...if I really have some anyway.I am so lonely...
I hate accidents like someone missing and I, the reserve, get to speak with the ones who come to me just because their usual partner is not there....oh but it's lovely when he or she comes back and of course the reserve takes back its place as a statue ready to move just when the signal of an accident is given....horrible...terrible!!!Now it's weekend time and I know that it's gonna be a very boring one beacuse I have nothing to do...Oh wait..on Monday I'll go rollerskating with my class mates:X...you see...I am finally narrating a happy activity....strongly linked to socialization..and fun..and bliss...not sad and emo stuff.
But my mind is just too crossed out to make the difference between happiness and sadness so I have so many notable events every day that I get mixed up and I don't care anymore..
On Tuesday...I'll hope that my life will become normal again and that I am gonna speak with my best friends that let me down...[oh i was sick too and they did not care a bit]...and I will concentrate on my new friends that help me and care about me [not imaginary yet:))] and I will just let the life flow...and I will probably be in a good mood...[let me think...is there any test on Tuesday..cause if it's something like that...I will be the best friend of everyone...funny isn't it?...and then i will be forgotten again by 3 or 4 people:)))...and slowly by all of them...and then i will take again the cycle of my life and again and again and again:))...hope I'll recover from my illness soon:)]
so another emo post.....and I promised it'll be different sorry...
tomorrow I will probably be happy and find an interesting subject to discuss about
nb:))and fluffy sleep;)

something happened

Well, hi..I am Andrei diz..and I decided that this night is absolutely perfect to create my blog....well i must give that to bogdan and alexandra,2 of my colleagues, cause they gave me this idea.

But they used their blogs for their own aims...and well i use mine for my purpose...to find me as i said.

I feel lost..I need someone...something strange happened to my mind a while ago. I just can't describe it..it's too complicated and i hope nobody will ever get this...I strongly think that's a disease, a virus that attacks my mind and my soul especially..I need a pshycologist or maybe a cat:)) to talk to cause noone has ever tried to understand me..not even my mother. so how could i expect help from anyone else?

well, it's kinda difficult. i probably speak alone because noone will be interested in this blog, but i still write:D.

I am really gealous sometimes and i feel very attacked when someone tries to "steal" my friends...well, not really steal, but dunno, i feel horrible when they spend less time with me and don't show me the friendship we should have, and the "stealer" takes my place, gaining place into the other's mind, and getting me out slowly. this is how i feel, although it's not always as it happens and sometimes i am really paranoic. Recently this has happened a lot around me, especially at highschoool, so i feel lonely and empty inside..there are not many people that don't give me this feeling...but my own best friends throw it to me..what could i do?how could i change?i just need help..

the person i fell in love with last year totally ignores me...and i remember that we used to be best friends..inseparable and totally attached more or less to each other. i suffer a lot now, but i try to hide it because nobody cares anyway and it's pointless to continue hoping that someday we'll be the same as last year..I just miss her.

I hate to be in a circle and everyone look at me...well it's a kind of allergy against attention; but,even funnier is that i hate to be let behind and noone talk to me or say something to me...in fact, i hate seeing nobody speaks to me,but everyone else..it annoys me very much.

everyone runs from me or someone comes to me...there are days and days...I can't realise what's my purpose in this life...what do i have to do?...why can't i just live my life and let it pass alongside me, as most of the people do..

Iwonder if i am the only one that feels this way..it's terrifiant.

I just need a friend.

But still I love my life...i don't have many phisical problems... My strong defect is that i am too shy...and it's very difficult for me to integrate into a group of people...cause i just can't keep up. Probably that's why I got this "virus" i described earlier.:-?? I hope someday I'll begin to understand what I really am and how could I change or become stronger.

Chiar cred ca poate odata imi voi reveni!

multumesc oricui citeste si are rabdare sa inteleaga...stiu ca e cam emo dar eu nu sufar intr-una chiar daca asa pare in tot ce-am scris..cand ma simt mai bine, voi face postari mai cool asa:)..

good night